Humne apni zindagi mein tay kiya tha ki hum kabhi bhi apni hadein nahi todenge. Par shayad us waqt humein nahi pata tha ki pyaar mein hadein nahi hoti hain. Pyaar duniya ka ek aisa ehsaas hai…jismein har hadein…bandishe…toot jaati hain. Aur ek din, humne bhi apni sabhi hadein paar kar di…
It was an evening time. It was raining heavily. The moon was shining brightly in the sky, I could feel it. I always had a thing for getting wet in rains…and that day too, I got wet in rain. My clothes were sticking my body like a second skin.
Kaash hum us din na bheegte…par pata nahi tha humein…ki us din baarish mein hum sab kuch bhool jaayenge…nahi pata tha ki baarish ka nasha aisa chaayega humpar, ki hum apni sabhi hadein paar kar jaayenge.
He was there with me. Although I couldn't see him, yet I could feel that he was there. He slowly came along and hugged me.
This was as our first intimate touch. I felt shivers in my body. We had hugged many times before, but we had never been so close. I felt exposed.
And as if it was not enough, he started nuzzling my neck. His butterfly kisses were making me shudder. I don't know what happened, but my breaths were becoming shallow.
I muttered my courage and said, "Yeh aap kya kar rahe hain? Chodiye na."
He said, "Aaj nahi…aaj bilkul bhi nahi. Itne romantic mausam mein aapko chodna would be impossible. Aaj hum aapko poori tarah se apna bana lena chahte hain."
I knew this was wrong. It was not the way how we should react. Yet, it felt so right. Before I could protest much, he silenced me with a kiss. It was all that took, to daze me. But I knew that was wrong.
I removed myself from him and said, "Please, yeh sab shaadi se pehle theek nahi hai."
He said, "Do you trust me?"
And I knew that it was the end of the discussion. I trusted him with my life. So, I surrendered myself to him. And that day, I lost the one thing that was most precious to me…and that was my virtue.
Shayad yahi bhool kar di humne…hum nahi jaante ki kyun ki humne yeh khata. Shayad, pyaar mein log sab bhool jaate hain…hadein, bandishein, maryada…kuch nahi maayne rakhti hai. Aur humne? Humne toh sachii mohobbat ki thi…toh phir hum kisi se alag thodi na the. Hum bhi behek gaye.
Dukh toh is baat ka hai…ki humein pata hi nahi chala ki jisse hum pyaar karte the…woh insaan nahi…jaanwar tha. Usne humein dhoka diya. Jab humne usse shaadi ki baat kari, tab humein pata chala uska asli chehra.
Laying tangled in the bed-sheets, I said, "Kal raat jo hua, woh nahi hona chahiye tha."
He lifted my chin and said, "Kyun? Kya aap humse pyaar nahi karti hain?"
I shyly said, "Agar aapse pyaar na karte, toh kabhi aapke itne kareeb na aate. Yeh bataiye, shaadi kab karenge aap humse?"
He stiffened. He said, "Shaadi? Kaisi shaadi?"
All the colour from my face had drained away. How could he say that after what we had shared during the night? I was shocked and felt my heart breaking.
I mustered up my courage and said, "Kyun? Aap humse pyaar karte hain. Aur kal raat ke baad, humein lagta hai ki humein shaadi kar leni chahiye."
He extracted himself from me and said, "Dekho Pankhudi, pyaar vyaar apni jagah hai. Par hum apni zindagi ek andhi ladki ke saath nahi bita sakte hain. I can only give you love, not commitment."
My heart broke that instant. I told him to go away from my life. And he did. He went away from my life.
Galti humari hi thi…humne socha bhi kaise ki koi ladka ek andhi ladki se shaadi kar sakta hai? Humari hi galti thi…joh humne socha ki shayad woh humse sacha pyaar karte hain…aur humne apne baba ki seekh ko bhulakar apna sab kuch unhe de diya.
Sach toh yeh hai ki…hum jaise log…I mean, blind people like me, have no right to have a happy ending. Happy ending sirf kahaniyon mein hoti hai. Aur shaadi? Koi ek andhe insaan ke saath apni poori zindagi kaise bita sakta hai? It was my fault.
Toh yeh thi hamari kahani. Aise hui hamari zindagi barbaad. Khata hamari thi…toh kisse fariyaad karte? Lekin humne apne ateet ko peeche chod diya…aur hum ab aage badh chuke hain. "
To be continued...
So, finally comes the truth about her past. Now that you have heard it, it's about time to switch back to present.
At the present, what would be the effect of this on Arth? Would he run away? Would he still like her? Was she wrong on her part?
To know this, stay tuned. Just, two or three more chapters to go...
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