Friday, September 16, 2011

Phir Mohobbat

Phir mohobbat…

Jab jab tere paas main aaya, ik sukoon mila
Jise main tha bhoolta aaya, woh wajood mila
Jab aaye mausam gam ke, tujhe yaad kiya
Jab sehme tanha pann se, tujhe yaad kiya

As the song played on my iPod, I recalled all the times I met her. Whenever I had gone to meet her, I felt a certain solace. I even forget myself when I am with her. Whenever I am sad, I message her and we talk. I feel lonely without her. 

She is my best friend now. Although, it’s not long since I know her, I still love her company. She came like a rainbow and sunshine in my life. Before meeting her, I never knew the meaning of true friendship.

Dil, sambhal ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu
Dil, yahin ruk ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu

I don’t even know what’s happening with me! Why am I this attracted to her? Maybe it’s because of her uniqueness. She is the most different girl I have ever met in my life. She is just like a kid. She is innocent.

She is shy yet sweet. Does she even know how cute is she? Perhaps not. All her innocent talks, her sparkling eyes and her sweet voice…everything about her enchant me. I need to safeguard my heart…or else, she is the type of girl, for whom I may fall.

Aisa kyun kar hua, jaanu na main jaanu na
Dil, sambhal ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu
Dil, yahin ruk ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu

I don’t know why it is happening with me. But I am surely getting attracted to her more and more. With each passing day, she is evoking some beautiful feelings in my heart. Why am I so concerned for her?

Why do I care so much for her? What’s she to me? Why is she so close to me so soon? Why am I feeling so much? I need to protect my heart before it’s too late. I can’t afford loosing it on her.

Jis raah pe, hai ghar tera
Aksar wahan se haan main hoon guzra
Shayad yakeen, dil mein raha
Tu mujkho mil jaaye kya pataa
Kya hai yeh silsila, jaanu na main jaanu na

I can’t help myself. I always pass the route to her house, just to see if I can meet her. I don’t know what it is! Why do I like her so much? She is like sunshine and rainbow in my life. She is the best thing that ever happened to me.

What is this madness, I don’t know. I just wish that this ends, or atleast my insatiability ends. I don’t even know how to act near her. My friends say that I confess everything by ‘the way I look at her’. Cheesy, isn’t it?

Dil, sambhal ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu
Dil, yahin ruk ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu

Am I being addicted to her? Is she making me feel those forbidden emotions? No, loving someone is not wrong as long as it’s not her. She doesn’t even believe in love. I need to be careful around her. What if she makes me fall? 

Before I met her, I never knew what it was like to look at someone and smile for no reason. But now that I know her, I do. I just need a glimpse of her to make me smile. And her smile is the most beautiful thing in this world.

Kuch bhi nahin, jab darmiyaan
Phir kyun hai dil tere hi khwaab bunta
Chaaha ki de, tujhko bhulaa
Par yeh bhi mumkin ho na saka
Kya hai yeh maamla, jaanu na main jaanu na

She is beautiful. Her eyes speak volumes. I can just sit and stare in them for an eternity. She is really different. Her heart is pure and clean. She seems like a creature from different planet. I mean, how can someone be so sweet and pristine?

It’s not what I feel for her; it’s what I never felt for anyone before. I don’t want to fall for her. I was to forget her. But every time I think about her, my eyes close and I can see her smiling at me. Why is my heart spinning the impossible dreams?

Dil, sambhal ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu
Dil, yahin ruk ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu
Dil, sambhal ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu

I guess I have to control myself before it’s too late. I can’t afford to fall in love with her. She is the one girl, who can break my heart. Besides, she won’t even get the fact that I like her. She is very oblivious.

As I was lost in my thoughts, a message brought me to my conscious. Her name flashed on my mobile screen, and a smile came on my face. Her name had a direct connection with the smile on my face.

Her name always brings a smile on my face. I am always eager to meet her. Am I having a crush on her? Can I protect my heart from her clutches? Or, is it too late? Have I already fallen for her? I don’t know. Or maybe, I know, but I don’t want to know.

Sometimes your mind doesn’t want you to be in love, but deep down you know you are.

The End.

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This one-shot is dedicated to Pooja...for her birthday. I wrote it on her bday for her, but thought that this wasn't  a nice one-shot, so didn't dare posted it. But now I am. Happy Belated Happy Birthday To You. :)

P.S. – I have no idea why I wrote it like this. I just wanted to write something different. I just had copied the lyrics from the net, when my hands automatically wanted me to type this up. As always, I am going to say that I have no experience in the matters related to love. I just keep myself at the character’s place and write what I feel then. So, nothing in this story is related to me or my personal life. So, kindly refrain yourself from asking me about the ‘guy’. It really irritates me, especially when there isn’t anyone and wouldn’t ever be.

@To all my readers who think I am heartbroken to write such things, let me tell you one secret. I don’t love. And I certainly, never had my heart broken. This is purely imagination.

And if you can, please leave a review behind :)

18 comments:

  1. @Anchal- Tere liye alag se notice likhun...ki NO i am not in love?

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  2. Par you got to have an experience in love!

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  3. @Anchal- Na baba! I don't have!

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  4. Was your heart ever broken?

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  5. @Anchal- Behen, main ek kaam karti hun...ek note daal deti hun neeche...jisse tere sabhi sawalon ka jawaab mil jaayega...Wait.

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  6. Aww...Angel i am waiting for it :)

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  7. @Anchal- I did it :) I had to write it for you! Tujhe har baar lagta hai that i am in love. <3

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  8. Angel...tu chidh gai hai kya? Aaj tu kuch irritated lag rahi hai.

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  9. @Anchal- Sorry sis...I am not irritated. Actually I am upset to think that i have been the reason for someone's sadness since a long time. I just came to know about it today. And that person is too special for me to hurt him in any way.

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  10. Angel..dekh main tujhe jitna bhi jaanti hun...uske hisaab se u can't hurt anyone...atleast not knowingly. So, chill. Relax.

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  11. @Anchal- I wish it was the case.... If only...

    Chal chod..and yeh 'angel' 'angel' phir se lagana shuru kar diya tune?

    And tu comment kar comment.

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  12. Main comment nahi toh aur kya kar rahi hun?

    And i love calling you angel...coz u are one..

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  13. @Anchal- no comments. Tujhse ladna bekaar hai :P

    So main chali...tu baad mein comments kar dena :)

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  14. Wowww NM...
    Gr8 job as usual
    I know i already read it on fb but feels gr8 to read it again

    -Mahima

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  15. @NM- Meri NM.... Thanks Mahi... you dunno how much this means to me :) I am so happy that you liked it this much :)

    - Mahi :)

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