Happy Birthday Aavya

 From the very first moment you opened your eyes and held my hand,

I felt so special and my heart felt glad.

A sudden feeling for motherly possessiveness engulfed me,

I wanted to protect the tiny you while letting you be free.

You make me smile and wonder how Iucky I can be,

That you chose to be born as my daughter by honouring me.

Through all the ups and downs that we have been through,

Our bond has only strengthened through and through.

Your tiniest actions make my heart soar with delight,

Any pain caused to you squeezes it with fright. 

Your perfect little smile that curls up your lips,

Down to the smallest of mole present on your hips,

The twinkle in your eyes when you feel naughty,

Or the faces you make when you are doing your potty.

I love everything about you- each and every part of you,

I also adore everything that sets you apart- making you- you.

I never knew that I could love someone so much,

I know I can give up my life for you as such.

You, my Aavya, are not just a piece of my soul,

You are all for me- everything that makes me whole.

 Happy Birthday my baby❤️

Love, Ma

Unshed Tears (Poem)

Hey Friends, I am back with another poem! This was written a heck long time back. Actually, It's one of my earliest written poems.

Link to the poem: 

http://mahakgoel.hubpages.com/hub/Unshed-Tears-Poem

I recently joined Hub. Now, I am looking forward to publish some of my works there and gain readership. I cannot publish my poem here, otherwise they would remove it from there. I won't be publishing any old stuff there, since it's not allowed. So, refer to my old works, here itself. I would always add a link to my newest work here, to keep you all updated. Thanks for being there! :)

Hope you like this one as much as I do :) Do leave your valuable comments, there or here, for I value them!

- Mahak

I Am Sorry....

Hi.. I am back with a poem. Well, this poem has got me so much of praises that it holds a special place in my heart. This poem is all about female feoticide and it's effect on a woman. Everyone blames a mother. We easily forgive the in-laws and others.. but we say 'How could the mother do this?' Well, I took this theme to explain the view point of a mother. The pain she goes through.

Earlier, even I used to blame the mother more than the in-laws. But since I started writing, I realized that there are things that I yet have no idea about. I can proudly say that my writing skills have matured me. Writing made me view the world with a different perspective. So, here I am. :)

Here begins the poem....

I am sorry

To my dear aborted child,

I am sorry that I couldn’t keep you,

Although I have been told to do the opposite,

Yet I just fell in love with you.

I never cared about your sex,

For, regardless, you were a part of me,

A part that I, wholeheartedly, cherished,

A part that completed me.

But in my beautiful fantasy,

I forgot a tiny detail,

That in this world full of people,

Some monsters also prevail.

They snatched you away from me,

Making my womb barren,

The amount of pain I am going through,

No one can even fathom.

You were not just some mass of cells,

As I have been taught to think,

I feel like a murderer,

And the world around me shrinks.

I can’t even begin to tell you,

How much it pained my heart,

When you were removed from my womb,

Throwing you in a world of dark.

Believe me, I was helpless,

Or else I would not have let you go,

If only you were here,

To witness the grief, I go through.

My soul was shattered,

When I threw you in a bin,

I had conceived a girl,

And that was my biggest sin.

I am sorry for being your culprit,

I couldn’t even protect you,

Despite being your own mother,

I corporated in killing you.

It was the most difficult thing,

To choose between my family or you,

And I am extremely sorry to say,

That I chose them over you.

Though I really loved you,

Yet they too were important in my life,

And although you were precious,

But before a mother, I am a wife.

God was so wonderful,

To give you as a gift,

Yet I chose to lose you, and for that,

I can just ask you to forgive.

-        Your mother

- Written by Mahak Goel :)

I hope you like this one as much as I do. And I hope it could make you understand the view of a woman. I hope it touched your hearts :) Infact, what I really hope is.. that you will understand 'her' rather than criticise her. Becoz honestly, no one frankly knows what she goes through. Even I don't.

I am just an amateur writer, who tried to pen down her feelings. I hope I succeeded :)

Do leave your valuable comments. I love reading them.

Also published on my FB page : http://www.facebook.com/notes/the-fragrance-of-life/i-am-sorry-poem/414426071925213


Also published on I-F : http://www.india-forums.com/forum_posts.asp?TID=2989380

Amidst the chaos in my life,
I want to find some solace, 
Maybe I am a optimist,
But I want to make it all okay.
I am not worried about tomorrow,
I am only concerned with today,
I want to fulfill all my dreams,
Without so much delay.


-Written By Mahak

I don't stop loving you...

You hurt me. Every Time.
And I still care for you. Every Time.

You make me feel low about myself.
Yet I feel so high about you.

You make me feel like crap.
Yet, I don't stop loving you.

- Written by Mahak

P.S.- Love can be between parents, siblings etc. too. But yeah, I am not in the other type of love :P

My Prince Charming

My prince charming…

When you look at me,

 I feel so blessed.

The way you smile at me,

Makes me feel dazzled.

Your smile is heart pleasing,

It just makes my day,

Whenever you come near me,

A chill goes down the way.

You make it so special,

You make it all like a dream,

You love me so much,

That you make my heart sing.

When we first held the hands,

And walked together on the road,

I felt so different and divine,

Something I have never felt before.

You call me by various names,

And make it more lovable,

You protect me in the crowd,

Making me feel beautiful.

You cry when I cry,

And you make me blush so hard,

Baby, I have fallen deeply for you,

Fallen very hard.

I can’t express how much you mean to me,

You are my life,

I just know that I love you,

And I want to be your wife.

P.S.- I hope that you all like it. I know, it's not my level of work, but I wrote it in mere 5 to 10 minutes. And besides, I don't write love poems. :P 


This is my second try at love poems, first one... well, I have reserved the first love poem for my future husband :P Abhi toh, aivvee rakhi hai. That one is a confession in my own typical way which is...beautiful... and this is coming from ME :P


Anyways, coming back to this poem, I hope I get atleast some reviews. I hope you like this 'not-so-cheesy-yet-cheesy-in-it's-own-way' type of poem :) Please review :D


P.P.S. - I wrote this poem for my friend, who had to give it to her boyfriend :P 


P.P.P.S. - Kindly review if you can ;)


Happy Valentine's Day <3


- Mahak <3

New paths

This is a short extract from my novel 'Arrange Marriage'. As usual, like I have already told you, in Arrange Marriage, I have used far many intricate pieces of my work.

This was written...for Nupur...when she was going to get engaged. It marked the beginning of her day with different feelings she felt. And it showed the confusion she had regarding the beginning of her new life.

In this her feelings are compared to that with nature. Okay, this is my habit. Whenever I am lost, I compare my feelings to the beautiful nature around me. So, I did that in this FF too.

The lost and forlorn look in my eyes,

The beautiful blue peacock sky.

The footsteps of a new phase in life,

The sun shining really bright.

The events preceding that of mine,

Tonight would be something divine.

The pool of emotions in my heart,

The lonely walk in a park.

The new sunshine was waiting for me,

The new sensation for me to feel.

The new path was waiting for me,

The new roads were meant to be.

I am excited and nervous for sure,

What to feel and what not?

Do comment if you like it :)

- Mahi...nah....This poem is by Mahak... :)

Confused

  CONFUSED

Confused about the numb pain in my heart,

This pain leaves me in the world of dark.

I am confused so as to what I do,

Is this thing talking me to my doom?

Why this pain did come in my heart,

What this pain is trying to impart.

Why am I confused to as what to do?

Why I sit idle suddenly out of the blue?

I am confused as what to choose,

Confused regarding the conflicting views,

I don’t know what to think,

Time changes in a single blink.

What do I really want from my life?

Just to become someone’s wife?

I want to do something in my life,

But for that I need to strive.

I love to write no matter what,

But in studies I am caught.

What to do and what not,

I need to think and think a lot.

I am confused about the numb pain in my heart,

This pain leaves me in the world of dark.

I am confused regarding what to choose,

And confused regarding the conflicting views.

My heart says something and brain something else,

My career is at stake and with it I have dealt.

I need to choose between my passion and my career,

This thing leaves me in a pool of tear.

I am confused of whom to listen,

This thing makes my eyes glisten.

I am getting tired of everything lately,

This confusion is affecting me greatly.

My parents have some expectations from me,

They say nothing but I can see,

How much they have expected from me,

This confusion stings me like a bee.

I am confused so as what to do,

I want to ask from the winds that blew.

Everything is bent on creating confusions for me,

My heart is torn apart only for me to see.

I am disgusted with the fact of being told every time,

I am tired of saying that this life is mine!

I am fed up of being scolded on every small mistake,

I agree that life is not a tasty cake.

I know that smooth roads never make a good driver,

But why do life teaches us to be a striver?

Don’t we own the right to enjoy?

Am I just a mud toy?

-Mahak

That's it for today.

This was written on 10th March, 2010 and I had no idea what to do. At one side, I wanted to do something practical, like becoming a doctor and saving lives. On the other side, I wanted to be happy, like becoming a writer. So, I was literally confused.

At one side, I wanted to be happy...truly happy and make something out of my life. On the other side, I had to be practical, differentiate between my passion and my career and make the right choice. So, this poem is exactly what I felt back then. 

In our life, at some point of time, we need to make the right choice. It comes to us where we have to decided about our career. According to me, career should be something you enjoy, or you can never be truly happy.

Like, George Bernard Shaw, in his famous play 'Pygmalion' said, "Happy is the man who can make a living by his hobby." This line has stuck with me and has been a guiding light to me. It made me choose.

It's all about making a right choice. I did. I knew that I can only be truly happy if I continue writing...otherwise, I would only be miserable. So, I took chance. Did what my heart said to me. And I am happy....very happy. Now, I am assured that when I would look back after 30 years or so, I can always assure myself that in the end, I did something I love.

Do leave a review if you liked this poem of mine :)

- Aapki, Mahi

Letting You Go...

Okay, this one poem is really very close to my heart. This is written for my best friend, Shivani.

She is going away for her further studies. And I can just silently watch her go away. It's the most difficult thing in the world, to see you best friend going apart. I would have been a little happier if I had any means of contact with her. But, in her hostel and college, even mobiles are not allowed. So I am not sure when I would be able to talk to her next.

Letting you go….

I saw the most dreadful dream,

Saw that you were slipping away,

While I was happy for you,

Yet, I couldn’t convey.

I knew that it was best for you,

Yet, I felt the pain,

However unhappy I was,

I had no right to complain.

You were just pursuing your dreams,

While I was doing the same,

But that didn’t explain the pain,

That, with the distance, came.

I knew I had to let you go,

And miss you all the while,

I had to be happy for you,

And even fake a smile.

I was genuinely happy for you,

Just my heart ached a little,

For you were going away from me,

Going away, a little far.

I knew that no more would we meet,

There would be no more talks,

Even though we would be in touch,

We wouldn’t be there to side-walk.

There would be no more hugs,

No more time spent together,

For you were going to study out,

Who knows when we would meet, if ever?

With a little smile on my face,

I wished you the best in life,

I watched you go away,

With tears brimming in my eyes.

-       Mahak

Love you a lot Shivi....I know I am good at hiding my feelings for someone, but it never had been the case with you. I am always gonna be there for you. Just a call away :)

Please leave a review if you like this poem.

@I-F Readers: I am not publishing it on I-F. This poem is a part of me. And I don't think that I can ever bring myself to publish it on I-F.

Love,