Sunset

This piece is nothing new. I am just adding it from my FF 'Arrange Marriage' in which this extract served as Nupur's point of view. But as we all know, in 'Arrange Marriage', I have kept myself at Nupur's place for many a times. So, I shared this intimate piece from my personal diary.

I am girl...who loves sunsets more than  I can ever love sunrises. Although people generally prefer sunrises more than sunsets because sunsets gives them a picture of sorrow. But, not for me.

Lemme share it:

'Dear Diary, aaj kya kahoon tumse? Kitni saari baatein kehni hai tumse...hmm...chalo aaj baat karte hain suraj ki...

Kehte hain ki ugta hua suraj bahut sundar hota hai. Usmein ek chanchalta hoti hai. Kabhi naraz...toh kabhi hasta hai woh. Lekin na jaane kyun...mere dil ko ugte huye suraj se zyada doobta hua suraj acha lagta hai. Main hamesha sochti hoon ki aakhir kahan jaata hai suraj? Paani mein kyun mil jaata hai?

Sabki nazron se chup kar, aakhir kisse milne jaata hai? Kya woh bhi kisi se pyaar karta hai? Kya kisi ko uska bhi intezaar hai? Aakhir kaun hai woh? Kya sirf chand ke aane par hi woh apne pyaar se mil paata hai? 

Bahut logon ko doobta hua suraj bilkul nahi pasand hota hai...unhe lagta hai ki woh 'the end' ko batata hai...par...aisa nahi hai.

Mujhe lagta hai ki doobta hua suraj 'hope' ko bata hai...agar aaj dooba hai, toh kal phir laut kar aayega. Agar zindagi mein dukh hai...toh sukh phir aayega. I wish I knew ki suraj kahan jaata hai...

P.S: I love sunsets. :) '

And before you ask, mujhe sach mein sunsets bahut pasand hain. Likhne ke liye nahi...balki sach much pasand hai mujhe. Doobte huye suraj ko dekhne ka maza hi kuch aur hai. Aasman mein har taraf khoobsurat rang bikhar jaata hai...maano suraj ne use apne rang diya ho.

And before you say, that I am a hopeless romantic person, let me tell you that Aashi and my mother already have said this so many times and I myself know that.

And yeah, I love nature. As it is. For what it is.

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Love,

I love you...just another three words...??

I love you…just another three words…??

Sitting on my swing, I thought about the messages that he sent on my mobile.

I love you…

Those three words seemed so improper. So false. Never in my life, had I expected him to say those words to me. How can someone be so casual with such valuable words? For me, ‘I love you’ is a sentence that means life-time commitment. I have always dreamt of hearing those words from the one person I marry. Yeah, I am in love with the concept of arrange marriages.

But still, I am shocked how people can use these words on anyone they have a crush on? I mean, really? Is love just a fling? Either people’s definition of love has changed, or I am very orthodox. But seriously, I believe that, I would say these words to only one person in my life. Not anyone I seem to find handsome. Really. The use of these three words like this makes me sick.

This is really, utterly disgusting. How can someone use these words with so much carelessness? As if these are not something important, but something that can be used like trash. I really hate this mentality.

I strongly believe that love happens only once. Not twice or thrice. If it does, then it’s not love but lust. Besides, I am a little emotional when it comes to words like this. ‘I love you’ for me, is a very strong emotion. You just can’t feel it for every other person. You have to feel it and mean it, to be able to understand the depth of it.

I think I am starting to hate these words, especially from the mouths of people I despise. Being me, it’s really hard to despise anyone. So, I would settle with dislike. I have suddenly started despising these three words coz he said those to me.

How could he? Did he forget that I was there when he said those words to my ex-friend? I don’t hate him, it’s just that…I can’t seem to like him at all. How can someone be so casual with something like this? This is really pathetic.

His one message has shaken my whole view of love. Before this sudden message, I had forgotten that I had met him. I had forgotten those incidents, how we used to be friends, as his girlfriend was my good friend. But then, she and I had a huge fight which disrupted everything. And I couldn’t blame him when he took her side. 

But I hated when he angrily stared at me. He loathed me. I could see that in his eyes. And I am a great reader of eyes. So, what had changed? I didn’t even blame him for anything he did. In-fact, I had forgiven him and forgotten everything. In short, I had moved on from that dirty phase in my life. I had to face so much during that phase. I was humiliated, tortured, and emotionally broken. Yeah, I am sensitive like that. 

And after so many months, I had forgotten those incidents. Atleast, I tried to. And the last thing I heard was that she broke up with him. So, why was he messaging me? I mean, really? Me? The girl who hated these things?

What hurt was the thing that he had the nerve to message me and say those words to me. ‘I love you, I really do’. How can someone treat these words like a joke? For me, ‘I love you’ is rather…sacred.

And he had said those words to my ex-friend with so much passion. Even I was convinced of his love for her. I felt shy when I saw them talking. When she used to be my friend, she used to share so much about him. She used to say that he was really sweet and loving and that he loved her very much. So, what had gotten wrong?

When I first got a message from an unknown number, I asked back about the number. When I got his name in return, I was shocked out of my wits. I felt anger, but then I composed myself and asked ‘why are you messaging me, after everything that happened?’, but his answer was even more shocking. He replied, ‘coz I realized that I made a mistake’. When I asked which mistake, he said, ‘I fell in love with ya.’ 

I told him that I knew that he loved her, to which he replied that ‘No, I was talking about you. I love you. I only liked her.’ I was really shocked. Did those times, when he said he loved her, were only like? Did he actually use those terms as waste? And at that moment, I started hating him.

I told him to shut up and never message me ever again. How could I trust him when he had the nerve to use those words for me as if nothing had happened? When he hadn’t meant those words for the first time he said them, what makes him think that I would believe that he means it when he says that to me? What if, he does that again? Besides, I am a one-man girl, and I am never going to believe the likes of him.

I hate people like these, who say these words and mean nothing. There may be people to whom it doesn’t matters, but to me, it does. A lot. It means the world to me. Like I said, these aren’t just another three words for me. I was heavily upset with the use of these words like this, so I told my friend everything. My friend consoled me and asked me not to cry for him coz she knows that I am really sensitive. But, I am never going to cry for him or due to him. Why should I? He means nothing to me!

It’s just that I can’t believe his audacity to say those words to me, knowing that he means nothing to them. But I guess I can’t only blame him. Today, people use these sacred words like this only. I can only hope that my future husband doesn’t do so and that he loves me truly, not only for the name sake.

But seriously, is ‘I love you’, just another three words, having no value whatsoever?

-        -  Mahi

NOTE: All the characters in this above story is completely fictional. Although, I have completely kept myself at her place and written this story, the incident that happened, is purely imaginary. 

For God sake, like always, don't think that this happened with me. These are my own views, and are not written to offend anyone. Do forgive me if I have unintentionally offended anyone. 

Well, hardly any reader of mine comes to my blog...they rather comment on my I-F account, but yeah, I am late...literally...so I can't publish it on I-F right now. Would do it later :)

Please leave a comment to tell me about your views :) And yeah, I always DO check the comments and reply back :)

Aapki,
Mahi 

Never changing issues of newly weds…. *Article*

Never changing issues of newly weds…

The problem that arises here is the never ending adjustments. To start with the above topic, I would like to give some real life feelings and experiences.

When a girl is newly wed, she enters her new house with loads of apprehensions and dreams. At some point, she is nervous regarding the new changes in her life but at the other point, she is happy to have a new house. She prepares herself for all the adjustments she has to make.

A girl seems to have a little difficulty in transforming herself according to the needs of her new household, but she tries her level best. Since childhood, a girl is taught to be like the water, which can transform itself exactly like the vessel it is kept in. And she, being the ever so attentive child, always tries her level best to do everything to please her in-laws.

She becomes the epitome of sacrifices. She has to make certain sacrifices of her own happiness where it concerns her new house’s happiness. She always has to choose her family member’s wishes over her own. And it’s simply not that easy. The pampered child in her always makes her think twice. But ultimately, the sensible woman in her wins.

And by this, I don’t mean to imply that a boy has to make any less adjustment. If a girl has to leave her house, a boy has to get over the fact that a person would be added in his life. While a girl has to make new adjustments and stay in her new room and house, a boy has to round himself at the idea that he would be sharing his room with his wife.

Adjustments are made from both the side. Without the co-operation from both the sides, the marriage doesn’t works. And both the party knows that they have been tied up for a lifetime. And here it draws a line between real and reel life.

As we know, in reel life, a girl slips into the new household as if she has been living there throughout her life. She becomes the epitome of sacrifices. She has to bear the conspiracies of some corrupted in-laws who can’t see her in their household, simply because it would mean sharing money with her. They make plans to remove her from their household. But the girl’s husband loves her entirely too much to loose her.

Series of incidents takes place and ultimately the house becomes an open war ground. Finally the sensitive chords of relationships are broken. And the newly wed couple separates themselves from the house.

But is this reality? Definitely not! Here comes the main difference between reel and real life. Real life is not that easy to deal with. In real life, there are real problems. Although there are no corrupt in-laws and house-breaking people, still there is jealousy. And jealousy is the root of all evils.

But then, no one said that married life is easy to cope up with. Marriage is a new step in one’s life. One has to deal with tender care and love. And family plays a very important role in this. If one’s family is supporting, adjustments are easy and worth making. But if one’s family is non-appreciable, adjustments seem just a duty.

Well, apart from making some adjustments like altering the habit of getting up early in bed, a girl has to ensure that she is ready within the time period. She constantly takes measures and alters all her habits. Her entire world is turned upside-down. Before marriage, she is pampered by her mother and never cooks food, but after marriage, she has to cook food for not only herself but also for her family.

And one cannot ignore the fact that, a girl infact, has to live with strangers. Apart from the initial nervousness and fear, she is the one who has to cope up with all the customs of the family. There are different things standing in her way. At every step of her life, she has to make adjustments. They become a vital part of her life.

But then, the course of life has never did run smooth. And the various obstacles make her strong. According to me, adjustments help the girls in the development of their overall personality. And without these petty adjustments, she can never gain the love of her family members. 

- Mahak

P.S. - sorry for the abrupt ending...bas dil ne itna hi kaha....

What is Municipaltiy doing? (Article)

Hii...this is Mahak again....this time, i am not here to share a piece of my work, today i want to question each and every individual about various things of life.

Today, I got to know about the cow in my locality. It was a baby cow who got stuck in the drainage. Since morning, the poor animal was lying in the gutter, but no one came to the rescue. And in the evening, I came to know about it. And mind it; I am not the hero of this story. My father used his brain and with the help of others, the cow was rescued. It was a really difficult task.

The moments where people were trying to pull out that cow, only I knew how much tears I had in my eyes. The only thing that was coming in my mind was that “God please save the poor cow. Bhaiya [Krishna Ji] please save that cow. Use bacha lijiye kyunki har cow aapki zimmedari hai. Save her, for me” and etc.

That time, I only knew one song, “O palanhare, nirgun aur nyare, ki tumhre bin hamro kauno nahi. Hamri uljhan, suljhao bhagwan, ki tumhre bin hamro kauno nahi.” Sounds filmy? Well, it wouldn’t have if you had seen the condition of the poor cow.

Thank God that it was rescued, but my question remains the same. Where were the Municipality people? What were they doing all the time? Sitting in their houses and watching some soap opera?? Or playing a set of cards?? Were they waiting for heroes to emerge? Or were they relaxing because today is the last day of a weekday??

My neighbor said that they would come in the morning. But wouldn’t the cow die after that? I mean, how could they let the cow struggle for her existence and take the matter lightly? How could they let the representative of God, struggle like this?? How could they let that cow suffer?? Wasn’t it their duty to come and save the cow??

Today it was a cow; tomorrow it would be someone else. Would they have the same attitude, if instead of a cow, their child would have been there? I mean, where are the responsibilities? Hadn’t they promised, during the time of vote, that they would be available to the people at every odds of time?? Are animals exceptions to this?? I, for one, refuse to let all this happen.

But yeah, there was one boy in my colony, who was gathering people for the cow’s help. I never knew his existence until I saw him today. I don’t know him, but by his efforts only, today the cow was saved. I salute you, Mr. Saver. And I am proud that you live in my colony.

I salute everyone who helped the cow to get out of that gutter. I am proud to be the daughter of a very brainy civil engineer, who tried his best and used various techniques to pull out that cow. I salute everyone who contributed in the pulling out. And I salute you, Mr. Stranger.

The respect in my heart for you, has only grown, Mr. Helper. While on the other hand, I am now more determined that, on 3^rd March, 2011, when I would be eighteen and I would have my own voting right, I would make sure to choose a responsible person this time. Because, each vote makes a difference.

 - Love,

Save Wildlife [Article]

well, this isn't a story but a shear truth of life.....i mean today no one really cares for humanity....all they care for is money.....why? i mean hum log pehle insaan ko bhagwaan kehte the.....phir shaitan...but these days the humans have even crossed that limit....

my heart laments when i saw that some humans....i mean some devil humans had captured some innocent animals.....and u know what they did? they pierced their nose, cut their nails, burned their tongues so that they couldn't attack them.....and then they were trying to sell them to other countries.....

is this humanity?

i mean are u sure that u want to be one of the person who is like this? aren't we responsible? we buy animal things.....and that's why they kill animals.....but if we don't buy any animal stuff, then i don't think that there would be a need to kill animals.....

we often pluck flowers for its beauty.....but we don't think that it wud look more beautiful on the plants? but NO!!!!! we have to pluck it for ur sake....just for our two minute pleasure...

we kill animals.....NOT ME! but don't u think that they too have the right to live? they too wanna exist of our Earth? don't u think that if we don't protect them then they would become extinct? how many of us wud want to see a mammoth? Many! but we can't as they are extinct! but u know why? becoz we never took care of them! our ancestors killed them for their tusks and skin.....but if they didn't had done that then we would have been able to see them......

and if we don't take a step ahead then i am sure that our future generation would think the same way.....they would also blame us......


ohk....let's leave this.....forget the past......but what abt the future? i mean we have heard that now there are only 1411 tigers left in our world.....atleast take a step now to save them! we can't now sit back.....and then see them in a book or something in our future.....don't u think so? why not take an action today? comeon! atleast now take a step to save them.....if we still don't take an action then it's really not humanity.....save wildlife! it's the need of the hour.....we have seen the advertisement....and i think like me.....some must have shed tears also.....but how many of us took that seriously?

a tiger cub waiting for his mother to come......he is hungry....he is wanting the comfort of his mother....when wud his mother come? he doesn't know even if his mother wud come or not? is she the prey of the hunters? what wud he do without her? wud he survive? he doesn't know.....u know why? becoz of US!!!!!! i mean we chill and buy tiger skin.....we wear fur clothes......made up of their skin....they are so warm.......but don't u think that the coat wud have given more comfort to the animal? wudn't the coat look more nice on the animal itself? THINK ABOUT IT!


we always think that let the other one be our guide......why we take the first step? but don't u think that the others might be thinking like u too? and if all think like this only.......then no solution is possible......everyone wud think like that only....and no action wud be taken.....

and i don't want to be one of the people......so I am taking the first step.......i am not gonna buy any thing made up of animal skin....or anything made up of animals.....(i never did) so are u with me? are u going to stop that practice too? i wanna have ur opinion on this! i do!

R U WITH ME? r u gonna save wildlife?

i am waiting to listen to ur thoughts......i really am desperate regarding that.....and if u are with me......then do show me ur views.....plz........

love,
Mahak